POEM : Lillahi Taala

I am here
not only for sit in examination
I am here
not for 4 flat
I am here
not for anugerah naib canselor
I am here
not looking for soulmate

I am here
to make myself better
I am here
for the seek of knowledge
I am here
for mardhatillah
I am here
lillahi taala

Please...

we're not in the same mission
we're not for the same purpose
we're came from different background

Please...

don't make me down
don't be so proud to be here
don't let yourself feel so comfortable

Please...

Let me
stand for my mission
Lillahi Taala

If you really know what is the meaning of
lillahi taala
If you really know.....

#Throwback Madinah Munawwarah

Catatan 22/8/2014 0842PM
Teringat;
Waktu nak masuk Raudhah (satu tempat di dalam Masjid Nabawi yang Nabi Muhammad katakan ia adalah taman-taman syurga)--
Berasak-asak kami disana. Adik bongsu hampir lemas kat situ.
Suasana yang tak dapat saya nak gambarkan melalui penulisan ini..
Hanya sempat menadah tangan minta doa untuk keputusan SPM waktu itu. Berebut-rebut sangat--
Mama solat pun orang boleh langkah, how sad~

Nak ceritanya--
Lepas siap-siap semua kat situ,
kami nak keluar, pun masih berebut-rebut.
Nampak dah beberapa orang makcik-makcik dah terkulai, pengsan kat situ.
tuptup bunyi ambulans.

Dah agak--
Meninggal
Seorang, lepas tu seorang lagi..

Memang macamtu keadaan kat sana,
lagi-lagi waktu perempuan masuk Raudhah
Sebab perempuan nak masuk ada waktu-waktu dia
Sangat terhad, jadi bila dapat masuk,
semua orang berebut tak ingat adab dah.

Nak cakap--
Mati tu tak kira siapa dimana bagaimana kan..
Kita ni
entah.
Mati nanti ada ke orang nak buat solat jenazah, jenazah kita ni ada ke ghaib, macam mana lah mati kita nanti...
Cuma satu--
Harap mati nanti, semadikan saya cepat-cepat,
Doakan dipermudahkan urusan saya 'disana', dipercepatkan masuk jannah Allah.
Maafkan saya. Doakan saya :)

POEM : I cry

Ya Rahman Ya Rahim

I pray to Allah for all that I need 
I love Him
I fear Him
I trust Him

My hopes go up to Heaven just for Him
Then if my feelings are like this
Is it not ok to cry?
Shed a tear?
Why?

I can cry when I supplicate
And cry when my prayers have been heard
I fear Allah and when I sin I can cry
Because I am ashamed when He sees 
And He sees all that I do
And when I have been saved from it
Saved from the shame

Why Oh Why
Do I cry? I wonder
Is it because I'm afraid of the fire of Hell?
Is it because I'm afraid to die and face Him?
Is it because I know I have done wrong

And every horrible thing that happens is because I dispeased Him?
Yes.I am afraid but it's the fear of a servant! 
Born a servant and I shall die a servant
A servant to Allah
And I worship Him

Because He is the only one deserving of it
He is the sole Creator and Sustainer of all that is
He is my witness, your witness, their witness to everything
He is the one who loves all
He loves you, He loves me, He loves us more than our own parents

And I truly love Him because He deserves to be loved
The only one who deserves all my love, your love, our love
Is it still strange to Cry?

If you say yes then look up, look down, look all around you
The sky. It shields us, It protects us, It is perfect for us
There must have been a God, the Creator of all this
He layed out the oceans and seas for us
He gave the Earth beauty for us
Look at a rose

Why is it here with us?
How has it come to be?
Oh it is true, I know it in my heart
That I am a servant, you are a servant, every creature and creation
We are the servants of Allah and He is our Witness

I cry 
And I cry
Tears of sorrow when I reject Allah's order
I pray
And I pray
For forgiveness
And when I smile, I think
La Ilaha Illa' Allah

Because even though Allah brings suffering upon me and others
He also gives us a chance to smile and he gave us a Heart
And my Heart 
It is where my tears come from

So is it ok now to cry?
Yes. And Allah is my Witness
The sole witness of all
And I will face Him
When the time comes
And I wait for it
With tears of love, fear, and trust

Sekadar hiasan. Tiada kaitan dengan mana-mana pihak. CREDIT : DevianArt